HAND ME THE COOKIES & NOBODY GETS HURT

2010-09-15T17:23:00.001+08:00

crappy day.

2010-09-13T17:48:00.002+08:00

Woots! Last week of work before heading back to school! :)

Mixed feelings. Excited to be in school with flexible time table yet hate the mugging part. I'm glad everything went smoothly for the ECR the other day! Almost had a heart attack man.

I'm also glad that things between JM and I are getting better! Today is the day that we're gonna start everything afresh! Forget about the past and live for the future! haha I'm gonna be positive about everything right now. At least, I'm gonna try to! :) Love the BF ttm :)

2010-09-06T10:04:00.003+08:00

Not soooo good. Lots of sleepless nights and nightmares recently. Maybe I'm too stressed up?

Stressed about school time table
Stressed about having too little alone time with the BF
Stressed with his sch's hactic time table
Stressed about GMarket issue
Stressed with breaking out the news (results)

WHY WHY WHY???

Why did it all occurr at the same time! :( Bf doesn't understand it and I just don't know how to voice it out to anyone. Nobody understands me...

2010-09-02T12:54:00.002+08:00

Things to do tml:
. Crash morning lect with Ver
. Redeem radio cum clock set from Canon

Can't wait for wk to end today! :) I'm worried about my time table. I have to submit my timetable schedule to help desk so that they can do it up for me. Crap. It's freaking troublesome. What if they only decide to do it up for me on the last day of the Ecr? I don't wanna screw up everything again next sem. Just wanna get it done :(

Min and Bell are setting up a stall at the flea and I'm so excited for them. Hai. Got to miss that out. Would be fun helping them out though! :)

2010-08-31T17:16:00.001+08:00

Bf is back to school and I'm totally not use to it. He use to have so much free time for me. Accompanying me for lunch, text me at wk, to call me on random occasions and to meet after wk as and when we want to. Everything is so diff now. I'll just have the urge to call him forgetting that he's in class. Mon & Fri totally sucks to me now. I just hope that everything will work out well esp when Im back to sch :)

Totally agree to what I saw on Ken's Fb today. "it's not about finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.." Everybody is diff and everyone have flaws in them. You can't find the perfect person but you can learn to love him/her and their flaws as well.

Thank you for not giving this relationship up ♥

2010-08-26T17:56:00.002+08:00

work work and still, WORK.

Super lifeless and freaking tiring. I' am really afraid of stepping into the working society. It's gonna be my nightmare for sure. I'm gonna treasure my time as a student. Play hard and study hard I hope! haha

The results are out. Suprisinging, I wasn't as scared as I thought I would be. Maybe to me it ain't gonna make a diff whether or not I see the actual results. Im just gonna grad one yr later than the rest. That's for sure. So guilty for wasting a yr and of course the money that is being paid for.

Aim for next sem : BE MORE DISCIPLINE!

Random

2010-08-24T11:04:00.003+08:00

I want those wings on me too! Heart it ttm! Have been thinking about it for damm long but when am I gonna get one! :D

2010-08-19T10:33:00.002+08:00

IT'S THURSDAY!!!
(ROAR!!!!!)

One more day! Just one more day to weekend! Can't wait to spend some quality time resting at home! :)

Results will be out in 2weeks time and I'm just gonna freak out for sure :( Can't wait to shift over so that I can get rid of the boxes stacked in my rm. Can't wait for school to start so that I can slack over lunch with the xians. Jas is gonna be bk this mth and Alicia in Dec! :):)

Gonna do some retail therapy with Mins and Bell tml! YEI!

Love.

2010-07-10T12:28:00.003+08:00

ZOO ZOO ZOO TOMORROW :)

The last time we went was like last year for the Halloween Party? Heard from Shiny that there are some changes made to the children's section! haa.. KFC is out for us this time rnd but pizza is calling out for us! haha youhoo!

Happy Anniversary Love.

2010-07-08T14:08:00.002+08:00

Worse day of the month.

Had to work despite the lack of good night rest. Had to act like i'm fine in front of everyone at wk. NO! I AM NOT! :'(

Molested by the guy while packing food for my mom. Quarrelled with my bf today. Being told by him that I have an attitude problem. My dad told me off for things that wasn't even wholly my fault. It's so saddening and hurting for all these to happen within that 2hours.

In the first plc, I had to carry those packed food and present I got my bf for the coming anniversary. My mom craved for cha shao rice which in the first plc I had no idea where to get it so i decided to put everything into the car at the basement before gg up to pack her lunch for her. Got "molested" by the cashier there while packing the food. Afterwich, quarrelled with my bf over lunch.Again. Best still, being told that I'm having an attitude problem.

Got back to the office, told my dad that i left lunch at the table outside the rm that they're in. Afterwich, left to continue with my wk for the day. When i got up, my dad called me and said " why you tabao rice dont need to take spoon one?" Nvm. When i brought spoons down for them i saw my mom eating mixed veg rice instead. Guess what. My dad told me the other pkt was taken away by the other worker. I was being blamed for not telling them which pack is whose. I was thinking " My mom knew the char siew is for her. My dad knew the one with curry is for his. Is'nt it obvious that the extra one is for the worker that they're with?" Just because the worker took the wrong pkt to eat and i was being blamed for it.

Oh wells, nvm then. Say whatever you all want. Its all my fault. I felt so terrible! Had to cry under the table just to avoid being seen by the rest. Why am i getting all these?

2010-07-07T17:27:00.002+08:00

The backache is killing me.

My dad was talking to me this morning and said something that made me felt sooo bad. He was telling me on how I should be controlling my finances and stop spending so much. " I'm very worried about you. What if I die? How will you even survive without any savings?" he said. I felt so guilty after hearing that.

Knocking off in 1/2 hour time. Time to head back home for dinner and a proper good night sleep. Lack of good night sleep :(

9 more days...

2010-07-05T14:46:00.002+08:00

11 more days to go! :) Getting excited about it!

" Do u think i shld start packing?" --- me.
"yeah. On the 16."--- bf.

(-.-")

Couldn't get to sleep ytd. I had plenty of thoughts up in my mind. How am i gonna go about packing things up in my rm and how am I gonna go about decorating my new rm.I'll definately miss staying here but oh well, Im pretty excited about the new neighbourhood! A new plc with a new beginning!:):)

PS Im sorry for once taking you for granted.

Rainy Morning at Work...

2010-07-03T10:02:00.003+08:00

The perfect morning for a hot cup of milo!!! :)

ps: 2weeks away

OMG.

2010-06-29T16:48:00.002+08:00

Okay. Seriously, I got a shock seeing my last posted date. It's like months ago damnit. I've been too lazy to update my blog esp during the exam period!

I went online today to google on "ways to control your anger" and "how to be more self discipline". I seriously think I need some anger management thingy. I've tried to do something about it and apparently i guess its not working! :) I know its normal to be angry over issues, but definately not right to be venting it onto other pl esp the ones u love though. I know that. I really know that. But, sometimes I just can't help it. I will try my best to wk things out i promise :)

The trip is getting nearer and im getting more & more excited! Lots and lots of food! Definately gonna gain some weight by the time i get back. Though its just for a week, I'm definately gonna miss my family.

2010-02-21T21:42:00.002+08:00

How true! :D

We should never go to bed unhappy! Keep up with the happy thoughts!

What will come, it will just come. What has to go, it will disappear. Life is full of ups and downs. It's just a matter of how we handle it and let it go! :)

Exam is just months away and I'm hoping the best for my friends! haha
Add oil everyone! haha :D

2010-01-24T02:13:00.002+08:00

Happening weekend for me this wk. Super tiring and super lack of slp.

Exams are just months away and im not progressing. Dammit.

Sunday spells S.H.I.T. That means a new week approaching with all the normal routines. School and work. School and work.

Went for "MY EX" this weekend and it was great! In the same league as "SHUTTER". I bet i watched like 10% of the whole movie only?!?!

Alicia just confirmed her flight details with us. In just a wink she's gonna head of to Aussie already. Gonna be kinda weird not having her around when we all meet up in the future. Hopefully 3 years will pass by fast! :)

Alrighty! Shall head to my nest now.

Nighty! :)
xoxo

2010-01-18T19:58:00.000+08:00

Got this from my friend Alicia's blog. So so so true :):)

2010-01-18T19:02:00.002+08:00

The unusual Monday morning.

Breakfast with Hian at Holland V and then rush to school for afternoon lecture :) Short meet up but fun as usual! Talking about old sch days and everything under the sun. *Breathe* Nice.

Friends whom i don't have to worry or be careful with the things that we say/share with each other. I'm glad they existed in my life :)

ps. Finally got to log in into the student portal after so long!!! Felt so relieved.Shoof!

xoxo

2010-01-15T16:10:00.002+08:00

That is so so so damm true. You won't get hurt as much when u don't care as much.

I guess its true that I use to care too much about how other pl would feel and think about. I use to tolerate all kinds of things. Being made used of, being taken granted of, being gossiped about, being backstabbed on stuff i might not have even said/do before etc etc. Be it whether those are misunderstandings or what.

NO MORE.

My mom told me before. " Pl who really understand you don't need you to explain your actions. Friends who understand you wouldn't blame you for anything just because you took too long to clarify." How true.

Its a new year with new resolutions. Time to say NO, time to treasure the present and let go of the past and time to believe in myself and not mind about what other pl gossip behind my back. As long as I can look at myself and laugh, I don't care how pl think of me anymore. Be it the truth or not bout what they said. I don't wanna care anymore.

2009-12-08T17:26:00.002+08:00

It's tuesday again :):)

Im so excited. I'm finally going for my favourite economic bee hoon at Dover this coming Saturday! With the curry veggi, fishcake and egg.... yummy!

Finally manage to get my ass settled dwn to study yesterday with Kenneth & James. 3pg of the study guide. Nothing to be proud of, but i felt a tiny winny bit of achivement! :D Gonna be studying with 8xians after sch tml. No games anymore pls pl! haha

Finally! WANTON MEE TONIGHT!!! youhoo! haha

Knocking off from wk in 30mins time! yeppi!

xoxo.

2009-12-05T10:27:00.001+08:00

"Some things in life are either taken way to seriously or not serious enough. So why worry so much about our everyday problems. I mean there is only so much time to be alive but plenty of time to be dead. So live every day like it is your last. Take way to many pictures, laugh and love with all your heart. "

love.

2009-11-28T01:07:00.003+08:00

... little things that made my day!

. Alicia who was so sweet! (we know what it is huh! :x),

. My family who have been so supportive and have been staying by my side,

. 8Xians who nv fail to motivate me in going for lessons everyweek!

LOVE.

2009-11-22T23:43:00.004+08:00

I wanna witness rainbow in my life everyday!

I wanna be HAPPY! :)

At least... I'm trying to.

P.S HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH! :)

2009-11-21T06:02:00.003+08:00

I hate everything that is happening right now. Why can't we just settle and get it done with. I don't get it. Yes. It's something that is very simple yet hard to deal with.

Everyone is just getting tired.

Maybe things are going to turn out the way they’re meant to and nothing’s going to stop them. Some things are easy to control and work out. But some things you just have to let go. So instead of asking why it turned out like this, i should accept that it is how it is. There is no way to change it.

-sigh

2009-11-19T23:45:00.000+08:00

I can do it! Yes I can! :))

2009-11-18T21:33:00.001+08:00

2009-11-18T09:34:00.001+08:00

Sometimes there is nothing to be said. Sometimes nothing should be said. I just want to find someone who will look me in the eyes and tell me its okay that things don’t always go right. That this is how life works, and how it will always work. That it’s not going to be easy-today, tomorrow, the next day, but it will somehow get better.

2009-11-18T01:27:00.001+08:00

“ I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of feeling empty inside. I’m tired of feeling worthless. I’m tired of feeling stuck. I’m tired of feeling crazy. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of yelling. I’m tired of pretending. I’m tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I’m tired of missing things. I’m tired of missing people. I’m tired of remembering. I’m tired of wishing I could start all over. I’m tired of not being able to just let go. I’m tired of faking it. I’m tired of being different. I’m tired of being angry. I’m tired of needing help. I’m tired of always wondering when God is finally going to let me be happy. Most of all, I’m just I’m tired of being tired. "

-sigh

2009-11-17T14:34:00.004+08:00

RACH NEEDS TO BE MORE POSITIVE ABOUT THINGS!

Those scary nightmares are affecting me :(

DRAAGED MYSELF TO CLASS :(

2009-11-11T22:49:00.004+08:00

Dragged myself out of bed and head to sch with the super bad outbreak on my face.

The horrible facial experience that left my face like that! &$#@!@!!! PISSED. Sometimes I really think that it is wise to stick to the usual one that we go to? A change doesn't mean that its gonna its for the better. In this case, NO!?!?!

I just pray hard that by going back to the usual facial centre I patronise tml, its gonna be better?Not forgetting the anti-biotic which my brother gave me today, I really hope that it will be better by next wk :)

I was so bored during HRM lecture today that i started playing with Ah Pong's pencil case. haha It just looks so cute standing right beside the suan mei!! haha

Our mini junk food corner during our lecture! :)

These pl just make class seem so much more fun! :D

♥ OFF TO BED! love. - Day 6

2009-09-17T19:41:00.003+08:00

Dragged myself out of bed this morning and went to class as usual. Surprisingly, Kenneth was the one who waited for me outside the lecture hall today! Haha

He asked me one damm random question.

kenneth " Aye.. U're called Rachel then ur sis got no english name ar?"
Me "Er... i think she have eh"
Kenneth " oh what isit?"
Me " er.. dono eh"
Kenneth " @.@ "

Then he was like " oh. Then why chose Rachel? Why not like Mary or Jane???"
Me " -.-. Then why you are called Kenneth but not Peter? Cuz Peter sounds damm beany and long"

SO....

After this conversation... We started calling each other Peter and Mary already.. This just proves how boring the lecture is right? haha okay nvm... we're lame. haha

2009-09-06T20:47:00.002+08:00

Its already like what? Maybe a month since my school term has already started and I'm still slacking away? haha I'm feeling so lost and confused at times... Not knowing what to do next,what do I really want and other stuffs. haha Just weird thoughts going around.

Hmm...

2009-08-27T20:49:00.003+08:00

YEI!!!

The results are out today and I'm just glad that everyone has made it through together! haha. Kenneth was saying in lecture today that we shld all gather one day again since we are all in seperate lectures now. He was like " Aye wanna watch movie not? Final destination?" then i was like " oh. I watching this wkend eh" then he gave me that "killer" look. haha Hopefully we'll be able to come up with one that we all can all watch together! haha

First attempt to bake mango cheesecake and we made it! haha. Not so much of the mango taste but well...everything somehow turns out quite well! haha yummy! haha

<3

2009-08-05T15:02:00.000+08:00

I wanna be like this!!!!

2009-07-30T08:53:00.002+08:00

Another day at school! haha Wei crashed into our lecture for that day again and as usual she came out with alot of her funny stunts on our way there. haha

Sometimes I'm really damm amazed by the fact that she can just clique and mix with anyone. haha. Now, after a few times mixing around with us, she's like a BFF with Dixon and the guys alr.. haha damm funny. haha

Trying to pose her so called MTV shot again?!

Night time supper at HK cafe that night after class! sinful soup and 4 freaking eggs... not forgetting my double fillet-o-fish after that too!!! oh man.. haha

2009-07-29T11:23:00.005+08:00

The sinful meal at the start of the day. To make it worse, the first day of the week! CHICKEN RICE!!!

Arr... tell me about it man.. haha

candid shot taken by my sis when i wasn't aware -.-

Her so-called MTV shot.

okayy...YES.. we seriously cleared everything.. the 3 of US. Muahaha...

okayy.. I really need to start studying man.. haha

2009-07-23T14:54:00.003+08:00

Bridging exam is just around the corner! No feel for serious studying yet.. Im starting to feel the stress already but somehow I'll just fall asleep each and every time I try to study... waking up regretting the time being wasted.

Approx 2 weeks more to exams and I better pull up my socks!

Don't slack anymore TXX!!!

:(

2009-07-15T02:14:00.001+08:00

Tea time is the favourite time of the day to me! :D

2009-06-30T02:03:00.003+08:00

Went to watch transformers with zeh and XT yest.. haha not bad.. but I find it kinda draggy though. haha

First week of school was like hell to me esp during Maths. I really HATE numbers man. haha. Worst thing of all... u find urself being alone not knowing anyone in that lecture hall. However! haha last Sat then i realise that Dickson and I are both in the same lecture so this wk of sch is not gonna be as bad i hope? haha with a friend to attend lecture with! haha

Im just hoping that i'll get use to the environment soon! haha :)

2009-06-15T01:14:00.007+08:00

Thank you everyone! :) thank you everyone who sent their wishes to me. Thank you everyone who gave me the sweet presents and thank you everyone who made time out to celebrate with me! Really really appreciate it <3

Its gonna be a brand new start for me at this point in time of my life! haha To forget about all the unhappy things that has happened so far for the past 20 years of my life and live for the future! haha Be more positive and try not to be so absent minded in things that im suppose to be doing! haha :)

Hmm.. everything wld be so perfect for this 21st if zeh could be here :) I really appreciate the present given by her and XT though smt cropped up last min when we were suppose to meet for lunch! haha

well sch is starting offcially on the 23rd! haha though the time table really sucks like shit.. haha but i better wk harder this time man. haha :) Hopefully! haha

Lurve!

2009-06-05T10:30:00.002+08:00

Sam and I went to my favourite cottage house cum shop to see see look look today.

Guess what lahh! we left there not only spending every dollar note we have in our wallet but we also had to TT the owner money after we left lahh. haha

Items gotten from that shop:

Blanket
Mat
Home slip on slippers

Total damage incurred: $135

oh man..... haa

Sam and i got so excited that we went home immediately to change our bedsheets. haha YIPPI!

Weekend is coming! haha

2009-05-31T20:47:00.004+08:00

weekend is finally here! haha a long awaited one! I'll miss lunching with wei though :)

I've been looking forward to this day of freedom! haha spent my sunday slacking at home and dinner out with my family as usual. haha

Feeling damm fat after eating so much at Ding Tai Fong. haha Nice though! haha Luckily tonight im meeting my running kaki for our usual routine! haha JOGGING! haha Hopefully after that i wont be feeling so guilty then. haha

Love! haha

Say goodbye to monday blues! haha

2009-05-28T08:37:00.002+08:00

EEEwww..

goodness the ticks are everywhere! poor thing... and now i cant slp in my rm :( haha oh well! haha nvm.. I shall do a thorough cleaning of my rm next wk and get everything done once and for all! haha

Hopefully the med and the tick shampoo will help in reducing the itch he having :(

love.

2009-05-26T14:17:00.002+08:00

YEI!

New blog skin my sis help me in making! haha love the skin.. haha 3 more days till last day of wk here. haha

Things I wanna do up next wk:

. pack and re-organise my room

. exercise more often

. spend quality time at home

. twilighting at WCP

. Rackey city plaza

More visuals to be uploaded soon! haha :)

2009-05-19T01:04:00.002+08:00

The ULTRA super nice waffle ice cream! haha I usually dont like the taste of vanilla ice cream. haha BUT! haha this is diff. damm nice. haha totally worth the price man. haha

I think im gonna have another one some time soon man! haha Shiok!

2009-05-12T15:49:00.002+08:00

3 more weeks to go and I'll be able to have a break from wk! YES! finally!

Afterwhich, school! haha I'm really excited about it though! haha

Shall see bout it! haha :)